I wish that Iife, right now, resembled this happy photo of me appearing to seamlessly make deadlines while juggling homeschool when it actual fact, my work day starts at 9pm most days and sometimes only ends at 2 or 3 am. I’m not complaining, I feel grateful to have a job when many have lost theirs or are working on the frontline, but after receiving DMs asking me how I’m ‘doing it all’, I wanted to be honest… Some days feel positive and others are so overwhelming, I would quite like to run away, thanks. It’s an exhausting, boring and trying time for many of us and today I described myself to a friend as feeling like Cinderella.
My groundhog days are basically cooking, cleaning, caring, teaching and entertaining in that order, in any order, in utter disorder mostly. In many ways, I feel like I’m a better mum in lockdown, my time and attention isn’t spread so thinly as my commute, filming and school commitments have disappeared and my work schedule is far more bearable and staggered so I can give my children my full attention by day. I finally feel more mindful as a mum. I also know the changes I want to make when this period is over. To not sweat the small stuff as much, to spend more time pushing myself out of my comfort zone (painting again and starting new projects/a business during this period has reminded me of that) and also that I’m stronger than I think. Oh, and that Netflix is everything!
What have you learnt in lockdown and how are you feeling?