We all have s*** days, that’s life right, but sometimes those tough days can feel relentless, and they can often morph into s*** months or even years. A lot of last year for my family and I was utter pants. Not professionally, but personally.
You probably won’t have realised that though, not because I was being dishonest, but because I couldn’t share a lot of that sadness, bar mentioning in passing that things weren’t rosy.
I’m a blogger and vlogger and of course my work revolves around me sharing my life. I can’t share it all plus I don’t want to. No one does.
In the same way as a documentary director and producer pre-blogging, the final programme and version of events, as with everything, will always a selective edit. Ideally balanced but everything is filtered and edited.
A close family member has been ill for over a year. They don’t want me to share what’s happened and I respect it. It’s not my story to tell but I’ll say this, it’s been heartrendingly hard for us all.
Beneath the smiles, the more fun days, the times the light gets a look in between the dark clouds, there’s a constant dulling. A sadness.
Things are improving. I’m positive all will be OK.
I’m focused on staying strong for everyone and luckily managed 2 sessions with the therapist I saw after suffering from a traumatic birth which helped me feel better able to cope with everything. And I am coping. I don’t feel depressed. I just want life to get back to normal.
I’m writing this for myself as a form of therapy but mostly for you. Because so often, on the surface, people’s lives- my life- can look easy.
Nothing is easy in life. You want success, you need to work hard for it.
Life will always be a cocktail of adversity and joy. The tougher parts bring vital lessons. They show you who you are, who you can trust, what’s important in life. They bring the context you need.
If you’re feeling alone, depression, anxious or are simply having a s*** old day, please reach out for support.
Talk to your family, friends and GP too if you need to.
There’s no shame or weakness in asking for help. That in itself, is a strength.
I’m taking me own advice on self-care and am about to head out for lunch with one of my best mates before going for a run in the sun.
It’s not selfish to look after yourself so please do it.